Sometimes the driving is scary, and I have to remind myself to breathe deeply: you can do it, breathe in, hold….exhale. That is actually one of the advice’s that navy seals receive. They employed a psycholog to find out how to improve the success rate of their applicants (40%) and this simple thing was one of the few basic things that he recommended they teach. And it worked.

But I have been breathing wrongly all my life, as I found out yesterday (actually re-learned it, after 18 years). One does not breathe through nose and mouth, one must breathe through body, let your lungs expand. Next thing I have to do is figure out how to relax. Bed a use this breathing automatically brings heightened concentration. And it can be bit hard to know about every breath you take…..


The most important thing

Is to keep your mind steady. It is like a mirror, or a lake, when calm and undistorted it allows to penetrate and explore all things big and small. But it is a tool, separated from self. I could see today that though there was great unquietness, it was not me, there was something that was able too observe it and say ‘that is not me, that doesn’t belong to me’. But I need mind to do things, so I had to use will to keep her steady and calm her down. But I am not my mind.

Big hudson

In military they say that important de visions should be taken after a good meal. And since I didnt have that in the morning, I WS forgetting things, first my sun glasses, then arrangement of stuff on the bike. But I made it to the west point. It is a big place, in a wonderful spot, on the turn of the Hudson river. That is more than a mile wide and west point overlooks it. I think of general Patton and reincarnation.

On stereotypes

When people object against stereotypes they often do so to show that they are elevated above the subjective views and even that they are objective. I however love stereotypes. They are nothing else than incorrect models, and all humans (but all-knowing) operate with incomplete models of the world around them. But many people somehow feel that their incompleteness is better than the others’.



Going through Massachusetts is liking traveling through a pine forest, the trees are blossoming right now and while you can’t see it, you can smell it; and it is one of the dearest scents I know. It brings back French Alps.

New Yourk provincee on the other hand smells of cherries and my childhood. It is that tree that was there in the spring, in full flowers, standing in front of the school. I wonder what the other counties are going to be like.

and that journey brings back other memories, those of journeying, it has been such a long time…when the subcounciousness would say:”ok, that’s it, you havbe done enough” and the mind would rest in peace. i guess i like to travel, though i never travelled because of the travelling…but now

The church on the hill

I’m staying in a house that overlooks the San Francisco bay, with Fort Mason on one side, and the ancient church on the hill at the other side. I don’t know its name yet but I already imagine the life when Spaniards held the city, with galleons arriving to the port, not too much different from today’s – young men with and without prospects hoping to make it, finding loves, families, friendships and finally deaths here, or anywhere in the country. And this is what I want to see when I travel through USA – I want to see them, listen to the stories of their lives.

On mistrust

This morning I have realized why I don’t feel well in my current house and in some other places. There are differences of attitudes that could be expressed as (1) OK, if you want to do something, fine with me. or (2) I don’t trust you are telling me the truth.

I have observed that many people are primarily in the second mode nad I think it is because they know they are willing to trick and cheat on other people (so they are aware that other people could do the same to them). The thing about mistrust seems to be deeply engrained in our societies (and it is infecting me too, as I’m discovering). Because, so they say, if you trust too much, people will take advantage of you – so will say the naive observer, not knowing the difference between causality and corellation – but the price for this cleverness is high. I have to pay (personally) with bad mood, negative feelings. Mistrust is a cleaver plague

Ach Suunto, Suuntoo


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So I have decided to make my awful time management to be just terrible. Having searched all the internet for smart watches, none of these devices were programmable (they want me to always carry a smartphone? And all I want was just to manage time….) So, first I bought some Casio watches (my Timex has a countdown, but can be only one active and none can run in parallel – that doesn’t cut it), and discovered quickly it cannot do it.

Then I discovered Suunto and their programmable wrist watch computer. Very nice, I though! It is expensive, true, but I always wanted to have GPS during runs, so OK, I decided to go with the Ambit 2S (only later did I discover wonderful ez430 Chronos – this watch is truly programmable and it is a real wonder of technology – you should check it out:

Having found no countdown timer application for Suunto, the fight for a new brave time started one late night. Oh, and it was very painful. I could use only the javascript emulator on the suunto webpage,, and there is almost no debugging support, no documentation (the App Reference Guide is pathetic – I’m not even sure whether the abs() function is an abs() function and what arguments it receives! The only way to find out was to write the programme, flash it to the watch [wait few minutes] and then test it in the watch. And all I wanted to do is a modulo operation – operator for which, you guessed it, is missing from Ambit2)

Nuff, I have managed to write my fairly complex time keeper – personal time warrior. It is a countdown timer with multiple alarms, it can be stopped, paused, and it does what I want: countdown (any interval) — ring alarm at a given point (eg. X seconds before the end) — then it starts counting second interval (my break) and warns me again when time is up.

If you have Suunto Ambit2, you can use it too:

So I can do my physical exercises, or speedreading training, have it run in 1 min interval, or accompany me during study work, and let it run in 45+15 min intervals (the 15 is a break). And I can start several countdowns in parallel.

So this relatively simple application (you can judge the code yourself, at the url above) took ~15 hours of work to finish (mostly trying to learn quirks of the language and debugging errors). If measured monetarily, these 15 hours were more expensive than the watch itself.

But Suunto has a smart strategy (in this respect), users are finding solutions to solve problems and thus providing enhancements for other Suunto customers. However, I’d say that the development tools are completely insufficient and compared to ez430 – laughable.